This is my blog number four , in this blog Dr Sabatino recomended for us to read Hills Like White Elephants (Ernest Hemingway). In this story talking about a lady her boyfriend trying with her to get rid off her pregnancy .In this story I can link the scene through my self suffering while I wearing my hijab (cover head ).I am going to overshare my story so let us begin.
A few months ago at my little house exactly at my bed room my husband was playing with my little baby over the bed. I was standing front of my mirror holding my hijab in my hand wear it and take it off may be ten times, finally I turned to my husband telling him "Yasser" he looked at me"yes ,Shaymaa" he answered. "listen I would like to share with you the most important decision I make it in my whole life." I told him. he heard that and started getting attention to me by turning his face and said "come on Shaymaa tell me what is your decision?"I smiled but my heart was beating up"I will take off my hijab" I said. He was staring at me with surprising "why.........?,what did happen? for a minute I said nothing but quite. My answer came with crying "because the people around hate me, ignore me, I have no friends, if I smile to any person there is no response for him or her. I continued "they think because I cover my hair this means I cover my brain or I have no brain ,I feel I'm a different person from the others . I started telling him about every day how the people dealing with me by ignoring and carless" you will never fell how I suffer because you are a man not a muslim woman has to cover her head by hijab" "One day I took my little daughter to buy baby diapers from next door pharmacy ,the manger there every single time he scowl at me"I said he tried to make me calm down hugging me "Shaymaa, your hijab is a symbol for your religion , your identity , you can not take it off easily " He said. "well, I need to feel I am a normal person" I said "if your decision feels you good and you will be happy with that I will support you.i am with you to the end of the world "He said to be continued
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Danni
2/11/2019 11:04:35 am
Hey Shaymaa!! i really felt how hurt you were feeling in this blog. i think your husband is wonderful for supporting your decisions!
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Franics
2/11/2019 01:15:51 pm
I really like how strong you are because it's not easy to be ignored by everyone you meet out there..
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Angelina
2/11/2019 01:23:07 pm
With or without your hijab, it’s who you are on the inside that matters. I appreciate your husband being so supportive with the decision. I could feel your sadness, it makes me angry that people in our world are so ignorant. Just know you are loved, and everything else will fall into place.
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2/11/2019 08:33:23 pm
Salam, Shaymaa.
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